love

LOVE
noun, verb, loved, lov⋅ing.
–noun
1. a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
2. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend.
3. sexual passion or desire.
4. a person toward whom love is felt; beloved person; sweetheart.
5. (used in direct address as a term of endearment, affection, or the like): Would you like to see a movie, love?
6. a love affair; an intensely amorous incident; amour.
7. sexual intercourse; copulation.
8. (initial capital letter) a personification of sexual affection, as Eros or Cupid.
9. affectionate concern for the well-being of others: the love of one's neighbor.
10. strong predilection, enthusiasm, or liking for anything: her love of books.
11. the object or thing so liked: The theater was her great love.
12. the benevolent affection of God for His creatures, or the reverent affection due from them to God.
13. Chiefly Tennis. a score of zero; nothing.
14. a word formerly used in communications to represent the letter L.
–verb (used with object)
15. to have love or affection for: All her pupils love her.
16. to have a profoundly tender, passionate affection for (another person).
17. to have a strong liking for; take great pleasure in: to love music.
18. to need or require; benefit greatly from: Plants love sunlight.
19. to embrace and kiss (someone), as a lover.
20. to have sexual intercourse with.
–verb (used without object)
21. to have love or affection for another person; be in love.
—Verb phrase
22. love up, to hug and cuddle: She loves him up every chance she gets.
—Idioms
23. for love,
a. out of affection or liking; for pleasure.
b. without compensation; gratuitously: He took care of the poor for love.
24. for the love of, in consideration of; for the sake of: For the love of mercy, stop that noise.
25. in love, infused with or feeling deep affection or passion: a youth always in love.
26. in love with, feeling deep affection or passion for (a person, idea, occupation, etc.); enamored of: in love with the girl next door; in love with one's work.
27. make love,
a. to embrace and kiss as lovers.
b. to engage in sexual activity.
28. no love lost, dislike; animosity: There was no love lost between the two brothers.
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I used to think "love" was something that came so easily to me. I love "love." Especially unconditional love. It is the one thing that can always make me happy, no matter what. Love seems to have healing powers like nothing else. But recently, due to some "self-realization time" and also trying to see others around me for what they really are, love is hard. Just plain hard. Love scares me. Love makes me excited. Love hurts me. It is crazy how one thing, one word, one emotion, one feeling can do all that and more. "Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all." Do you really believe that? Do you think that the heartache that could possibly last a lifetime is worth it for a couple of years of love? I'm actually still struggling with what I think about this. I don't want to be one of those bitter-towards-love people because I really do believe "love covers a multitude of sins." Although some people are of course easier to love than others, we are supposed to love everyone. We don't necessarily have to love them all in the same way. There's romantic love, friendship love, family love, etc...

Do me a favor. If you love someone, tell them. Show them. Remind them. It's one of the worst feelings in the world to not hear that you are loved, not be shown love, or to not feel loved.

My mind is going crazy right now. I'll write more later.