Blank Screens and Blinking Cursors

I hate that feeling. The feeling when you're looking at a blank Word document screen with that little, black, blinking cursor. You know the one I'm talking about. It's comparable to trying to write a blog. You feel like you have so many things to say or talk about, yet you have no idea how to begin or further organize your thoughts. That's my problem. Finishing stuff I start and organization. Although I want to see others succeed and finish things they start, I can't do that for myself. And although I always want to organize other people's rooms and their belongings, I can't bring myself to organize my own stuff or even my own life. Ugh.

I'm also having a very hard time deciding what to do this summer. There are a lot of options but for the most part, I can only choose one. My problem is I can't seem to figure out what the right one is. Here are a few of the options: going back to the orphanage in Africa, working at a KOA campground, going to summer school, getting a job around here, or just chilling out at the lake. The weird thing is, want to do ALL of them but, at the same time, none of them.

Again, I don't want to sound like I'm complaining all the time. It's not good.

Today, Jenny and I took pictures of my friend Candace and her fiance. It was a lot of fun! I'm glad she asked me to do it. I need the practice, it's always fun to take pictures, and I love to edit and Photoshop stuff on the computer. I took about 350 and I'm not sure how many Jenny took but I'm thinking they turned out quite well and am excited for her to see them and excited to see Jenny's.

Yesterday, my dad and I went and looked at cars. I really would like to have something a little bigger than my bug. I've always felt very small driving that car but ever since that stupid wreck with Brett's car, my car freaks me out because it's so small and very hard to see out of. I love my car, don't get me wrong. It's so cute and the convertible is great! But I would like something a little bigger and more practical. We were looking at the KIA Sorentos and even talked to the finance people about how much they'd give us for my car and how much we could get a Sorento for. The numbers weren't quite right so I didn't drive away in a new car but oh well. Hopefully we'll get something worked out soon. They want me to get something that I can keep for a while and not have a lot of problems with. KIA got 5-stars on all of their safety ratings (which I was very happy to hear) and they have that 10-year, 100,000 mile warranty, which is also very great. Anyway, I guess we'll see.

I wish more people would comment when they read this blog. Sometimes, people will mention something to me about it and I'm like, "Whoa. I didn't even know you read that thing." So, yah...if you read, at least put a little comment. I left it open so everyone can comment. You don't have to have an account.

I thought I had better stuff to talk about. I guess not. That's usually the way my life goes. Eh.

Comment. Give me something to talk about. Whatever.

5 random things for today: (plus some)
*I bought a new camera charger that I can take to different countries! :)
*Me and Brett talked on the phone and watched "My Big Redneck Wedding" on CMT. Needless to say, I got a lot of good ideas.
*Why do people say, "needless to say" and then say something? If it's so needless, why say it?
*I really need to finish my paper. One of my "english-teacher friends" was so gracious enough to accept my request to proofread it. I'm so thankful for her and her willingness to do that.
*The AT&T commercial with the dad sending the little girls all those pictures with her stuffed animal makes me melt. Everytime. (The scooter store holiday commercial also makes me cry uncontrollably.)
*I'm going to see Andrew Peterson with said "english-teacher friend" tomorrow night! I'm super excited!
*I took a 20 minute power nap today. It was warm and glorious.

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