Change

Wow. That word used to make me cringe. It still does, to an extent, but nearly as much. I think the biggest reason it scared me was because I knew change is inevitable. But it also scares me because I know that I need to make changes within myself. I'm working on that. Hard. It's tough and has pretty much sent me into a slight depression but I know it is needed. I like comfort. Who doesn't. I didn't think I was so scared of change and getting out of my comfort zone...and maybe I'm not. As long as we're not talking about ME. Death, circumstances, jobs, family issues...all those things mean change and all of those things are inevitable. I guess I'm just so attached to earthly things and people, I'm not as attached as I need to be to the One that will never change. I am learning this more and more everyday this summer. As much as I wanted this summer to be one of the best ones of my life (since it will be the last one before I really have to "grow up") I know that it will be a summer full of changes, tears, laughter, depression, happiness, guilt, and peace. I miss my friends. I miss the way things were last semester. But I need to enjoy the time I have now and make the best of it. I can't see everyone that I want to see and I know that will change permanently after next year so maybe this summer is my opportunity to get used to that. Who knows. There are people I love that I can't see but I have to get used to that, I suppose.

P.S. I wish gas prices weren't so high. That might help, too.

Love you.

I haven't done the 5 random things in a while so here goes:
*My computer officially died last night. I need some stuff for my German class off of it.
*I got my frist sunburn of the summer this week. It sucks.
*My jaw has been bothering me. They gave me muscle relaxers. They are NICE.
*I love my family. But I also love alone time, too.
*I bought HipHop Abs. It is super fun!